Monday, February 8, 2010
What a life to live when all we have to tell are lies. Worse yet, when lies become one's reality. Or is it worse when one knew one was getting lied to, but let naivety take its usual place by pushing logic of that comfortable chair? Or is it even worse when one knew one was lied to and then be hurt by this behavior? What is the point in lying? No, not the "my dog ate my homework"-kind of lie. More the stabbing in your back kind of lie. When a meaningful relationship (or what one thought would be a meaningful relationship, a friendship) is stretched across the blade of that sword that slowly digs deeper and deeper into ones rib cage with each lie. It riddles me, how a person who decides to lie and deliberately hurt a "friend" only to keep peace at home. Wouldn't the peace have never been in question if honesty would have been implemented from the start? And then, to keep that peace, the lie has to be carried out to further places. It needs to stretch as far as it can stretch to avoid the truth to ever show its face. Why? What is the point? Living a lie is the way to go? No matter how much another person gets hurt by that? Come on, a person cannot be so heartless. There must be somewhere a little bit of a conscience, no? Well, may I introduce you all to my best friend "Naivety" ?
Actually, Naivety has been a pretty loyal companion of mine throughout the years. A bit weird as my other best buddy is "Logic"... Naivety and Logic have their own little hierarchy they strictly live by and I shall not dare to interfere. However, Logic really needs to grow some balls and stand up to Naivety, perhaps even toss it out, I wouldn't mind at all. But regardless, it hurts a lot when someone, who you thought would be more than just a regular ole friend turns around and out of the blue pushes the sword in and insists on twisting the blade around for some special effects. What's the gain? What's the satisfaction of hurting one person only to not be in trouble with another?
It shouldn't have come as a surprise. The warnings were spoken from those who cared, the signs were there for easy detection. The eyes didn't want to see, the ears didn't want to hear and the heart didn't want to believe. Although, Logic very well knew right from the start that this will happen.. the question wasn't really the "if", but rather the "when", Naivety kicked Logic in the stomach and took full control of the situation. The only thing Logic could do was sit and watch while Naivety ran the show. Is there an expiration date on Naivety??? If so, that date better come up quick. Logic knew that it was unwise to "trust" as we all know, once you trust you are at your most vulnerable. To Logic's defense, there was a bit of a fight between the two of them, but as always, Naivety swung that pretty little scepter... and that was that. Still, the question remains, what's the satisfaction of hurting one person only to not be in trouble with another?
Posted by Liane at 5:45 PM