No need to speed up the aging process. It is very wasted on me, I say. Allow me to hang on to my youth, to my strength, to my desires, to my curiosities, to my willpower, to my love, and please to my mind, my memories, my passion and to what I am. Don’t rush me through this aging line… I will get there eventually, I am sure. No need of that extra push to move me along. May I just stay here for just a bit longer? I like it here. It is nice and comfortable and challenging. May I just let the next person in line cut in front of me, so that I may enjoy this for a bit longer?
You see, I am not done collecting. I am not done at all. I need to find more knowledge, more wisdom, more memories. So please, let me stay here just a little bit longer and take the one who is rushing to get to the beginning of the line. I am in no hurry to get there. Please, I don’t mind you concentrating on those who don’t love their life, those who take all for granted, those who don’t appreciate this gift; those who don’t want to stop and see. Let them all go before me…I don’t mind at all. I know I am not allowed to step out of this line. But would it be so bad to let me skip a few steps? What harm could it do? You won’t even notice, I promise. I will just stay here quietly and collect more of what this wonderful life has to offer. I will just keep learning some more, make some more memories before hitting the front of this line.
There is soooo much more out there that I need to see; that I need to experience; that I need to taste; that I need to touch; that I need to feel and that I have to share. I just have to share it all. I don’t mind you giving me a gray hair or two with every step I am allowed to not take. Go right ahead, so long you just keep me right here and so long those none-taken steps won’t count against me. Let me stop counting those ole chalk tallies on the wall. I just need some more time now. My mind is strong, my heart is still hanging in there… now is the time to keep collecting, don’t you see? Now I am still aware of everything around me. Now, my silly ole heart is still beating with me. Now, my mind is not failing me. Now my body is not failing me. You see, it’s the perfect time. But with every step you force me to take, I risk the ability of collecting. Of remembering. Of enjoying. Of understanding. And at some point, taking a step may mean losing what I’ve collected. So you see my dilemma, yes? Just please… let me skip…just a few times…don’t speed me along. Please let me enjoy my place and your gift longer. Much longer.
Let me be greedy! And be assured that this is no ordinary greed. I am not sure how to show my gratitude, my appreciation; you just will have to trust me on this. My word is good.
Wow, that was awesome and so well said. We need to cherish every single step we are granted, for it may be our last. What a shame to hurry or rush thru it and miss even the smallest miracle offered us.
ReplyDeleteIs it today? Your birthday???
ReplyDeleteHAPPPYYYYYYYYY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I remember reading this or something you wrote similar to it... always I enjoy your positive outlook and thirst for life. xoxoxoxo
Rachel -- thank you for your comment.. always puts a smile on my face when seeing you around. and yes, i agree, we need to cherish every single step ;-)
ReplyDeleteMary -- no, it's not my birthday today.. but soon.. 12.12. be my day of celebration ;-) but hey, want to share some cake anyway?? ;-)
Yes, and I am happy to know I have some time to prepare for the fun!! :))))
ReplyDeleteHi Liane.
ReplyDeleteWell written as Always. Yep Im working on a page here. It might take Me a bit of time with all the many things I do. But Yess I shall settle in. (_)P (_)p Always Just Rite !
Hi Liane.
ReplyDeleteWell written as Always. Yep Im working on a page here. It might take Me a bit of time with all the many things I do. But Yess I shall settle in. (_)P (_)p Always Just Rite !
Mary -- oh what fun are we preparing for? are you throwing me a surprise party?? lol
ReplyDeleteBillyyyyyyyy -- whoo hoo.. finally you are settling in.. let me rush over and join your new home ;-)
You and the aging thing... I do believe it is one of your obsessions, of which you only have a few... You have so much time, energy, vitality, experiences and the like left, it is not funny... you run the risk of losing some of it to worrying about the passage of time, over which you have no control... You are the very breath of life and energy and vitality... the only thing aging does is to improve you, like the fine sweet wine that you are... Fear not about the passing of years, it has little effect on you. Huge hugs... (I remember this post... as usual, your usual wonderfully written stuff... thank you for sharing it... 12/12 is like my own personal holiday, I lift a glass and celebrate you every day, but especially on that day... Cheers!)
ReplyDeleteI sincerely hope you get your wish.
ReplyDeleteTom -- LOL.. you know me and this ole time thing
ReplyDeleteLiam -- I sure hope so too ;-) wouldn't it be nice?
Wow this is tangibly sincere!
ReplyDeleteYou write so freaking well!
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