Tuesday, November 17, 2009
No need to speed up the aging process. It is very wasted on me, I say. Allow me to hang on to my youth, to my strength, to my desires, to my curiosities, to my willpower, to my love, and please to my mind, my memories, my passion and to what I am. Don’t rush me through this aging line… I will get there eventually, I am sure. No need of that extra push to move me along. May I just stay here for just a bit longer? I like it here. It is nice and comfortable and challenging. May I just let the next person in line cut in front of me, so that I may enjoy this for a bit longer?
You see, I am not done collecting. I am not done at all. I need to find more knowledge, more wisdom, more memories. So please, let me stay here just a little bit longer and take the one who is rushing to get to the beginning of the line. I am in no hurry to get there. Please, I don’t mind you concentrating on those who don’t love their life, those who take all for granted, those who don’t appreciate this gift; those who don’t want to stop and see. Let them all go before me…I don’t mind at all. I know I am not allowed to step out of this line. But would it be so bad to let me skip a few steps? What harm could it do? You won’t even notice, I promise. I will just stay here quietly and collect more of what this wonderful life has to offer. I will just keep learning some more, make some more memories before hitting the front of this line.
There is soooo much more out there that I need to see; that I need to experience; that I need to taste; that I need to touch; that I need to feel and that I have to share. I just have to share it all. I don’t mind you giving me a gray hair or two with every step I am allowed to not take. Go right ahead, so long you just keep me right here and so long those none-taken steps won’t count against me. Let me stop counting those ole chalk tallies on the wall. I just need some more time now. My mind is strong, my heart is still hanging in there… now is the time to keep collecting, don’t you see? Now I am still aware of everything around me. Now, my silly ole heart is still beating with me. Now, my mind is not failing me. Now my body is not failing me. You see, it’s the perfect time. But with every step you force me to take, I risk the ability of collecting. Of remembering. Of enjoying. Of understanding. And at some point, taking a step may mean losing what I’ve collected. So you see my dilemma, yes? Just please… let me skip…just a few times…don’t speed me along. Please let me enjoy my place and your gift longer. Much longer.
Let me be greedy! And be assured that this is no ordinary greed. I am not sure how to show my gratitude, my appreciation; you just will have to trust me on this. My word is good.
Posted by Liane at 8:33 AM