It's still raining and quite cloudy in my head. I don't dislike my world all that much anymore though as I am starting to come to grips with our new situation [I will share with you fine people when the time is right to do so]. For days, I find myself listening to a song by Richard Marx over and over again. The lyrics have nothing to do with what we are dealing with at the moment, yet I can't stop hitting the play button once more.
I find a needed solitude in that song right now, mixed with some old memories and sprinkled with a few thoughts. At times I tell myself, that it is enough already and to enter reality like a woman. And I like to say I do just that... until my finger is atop that play button again.
I am not in a sad mood, not even in a depressed mood. It's more like a mixture of nostalgia and .. well.. i am not sure what it is. Kind of silly, eh?
Not even remotely silly. And Liane... I've been coming over here and listening to the song as well... finding some sort of solace in it... and your friendship.
ReplyDeleteStay where you are, I'll make you breakfast.. xo
Every now and then we all have items we need to step back and take inventory of. Sometimes it takes a while to sort things out. You take as ong as you need and always rememeber your in y thoughts and prayers and my shoulder and ear are here for you as you have been there for me in my tough trials and times. {hugs}
ReplyDeleteI would be the last person to give advice or think that I could offer consolation. What I will say is that my thoughts are with you.
ReplyDeleteI like coming by here because if the subject doesn't interest me or I haven't got an answer ... I can just look up at that damn hot body at the top of your page ..... you thought I came by to read what you wrote didn't you? Go on- admit it ... huh huh? I mean ... just LOOK at her .... ok ok ... I'll get my coat.
ReplyDeleteGlad you aren't hating stuff so much at the moment Leeaahhrrrn - saying it with you ;)
Michael
Absolutely understandable... I know how you love Richard Marx... I was going to post one of his songs, as I had heard one of his on the radio - I'll be Right Here Waiting, I think it was... I know how you need room and time for this process, and you always come out the other side with a new perspective. Be well, my thoughts and best wishes always are with you... hugs
ReplyDeleteHey - I guessed the song... just found it up there...
ReplyDeleteAnd nostalgia... it's where I spend a lot of time... you are there a lot too... ;)
ReplyDeleteMary... Richard Marx is my favorite musician since the 80's... his lyrics always find a place right next to my mood.. anyway... glad the song does something for you too ;-) wanna keep sitting with me? I could use someone to sit next to me and exhale with me...
ReplyDeleteCurt... I know you would lend me your ear and shoulder.. but again, you know me.. i scratch up my own shoulders first. It's nice to know that you will be there for me though ;-) and for this i thank you oh so very much
Liam... thank you very much for your thoughts ;-) And you have no idea how much you made me smile with your refrain from giving advice. May i give you a virtual hug for that one?
Michael... LOL>.. i will make sure to keep my page enticing for you and, of course, keep a coat hanger and comfortable chair just for you, cause i like it when you come and visit, even if it is just to look at the lovely lady up there ;-)
ReplyDeleteTom ... I thank you for all you have said. You know me too well and that's a darn good thing. I will, as always, come out the other side with all the positivity i could gather and make the bestest thing ever out of it... tons of you know what ;-)
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ReplyDeletesounds like you are in need of a night time desert walk...
ReplyDeletefor instructions ask mary, see knows about this..
~smiles~
Thomas... well, nice to of you to drop by.. a night time desert walk.. ~sigh.. i am nowhere near a desert..
ReplyDelete(what the heck is wrong with my english spelling and overall grammar today????? )
ReplyDeleteYou’re welcome
ReplyDeleteAnd there is the problem; we never have what we need, when we need it.
Thomas.. never?? ~sigh
ReplyDeleteYou are my silly girl but you are never silly... Find me whenever you need me and you know I will make time to listen or talk or just snuggle you till you feel a little better... I adore you greatly.. Kisses and lots of them for you my dear friend...
ReplyDeleteOk *sighs* maybe never…
ReplyDeleteI mean I can think of a few times that I had exactly what I wanted, and when I wanted it.
And it was very good…
*sighs* precious moments
Sounds like a perfectly normal reaction. Sometimes just to float is to heal.
ReplyDeleteMichael... my dancing Knight... you are the best ;-) i will get to that e-mail as soon as i get back ;-)
ReplyDeleteThomas... yes, me too. And right now, i am not missing anything either... and hey.. how about you now let me know who you are ;-) starting to enjoy your visits ;-)
Tree... floating... that's kinda what it feels like, actually.
Happy Friday... another day, another day further along life's road, further from where we were yesterday, closer to where we might be tomorrow... I smile and remember a line from the tour out east two years ago, one of the bus drivers said "I don't know where we are going, but we're sure making good time."
ReplyDeleteAnd alas, I know not where life takes us next, all I know is that I want to have you somewhere nearby, does that make sense? Things get so crazy busy sometimes, and we just never know when we might have a chance to catch up again. I miss you so much, but then I pause and realize that you with me all the time. And that never fails to make me smile... kisses...
tom.. happy friday to you too... and happy halloween and all that fun stuff... i am always close.. regardless of the distance... hmm.. that kind of sounds a bit funny, doesn't it?? but you know what i mean, don't you? ;-)
ReplyDeletethank you... I get a kick out of these time zones... I am reading your comment before you have even written it...
ReplyDeleteI know that... I do.
Is it me? I can't find the song you're talking about and it's driving me nuts.
ReplyDeleteLOL... it's up there on the left side of my page... a little tiny video ;-) you made me smile with your comment ;-) i shall put this comment on your blog, so there will be an end to your search fast and you won't go nuts..lol..
ReplyDeleteTip toes quietly in.... leaves a drink with an umbrella in it on the table for you.. soft kiss on brow... I had a good morning with you..
ReplyDeleteWell, anytime spent with you... is a wonderful time. xo
Liane here’s the thing about Mary and for the record it was bullshit. She does not give herself any credit and again for the record. She has a lot to offer even on her bad days. Which for some reason she thinks wipes all the good stuff away … bullshit… pull her off the floor or not *thoughts turn to dirty for a second* and dust her off…. And she shines like a signal fire….
ReplyDeleteAnd girl you are lighting her wick, believe me…
look drinks with umbrellas... nice
smiles... we do get to that don't we?... it rains.. it pours...we fight the storm... until
ReplyDeletewe find that calm... still cloudy at times...but as with any new situations and or changes.. adjustments... thoughts and feelings turning new directions...perhaps the direction we like perhaps not so much.. but we continue journey...discover...peeling back layers of the new...and into the future once again.. with many wonders, blessings finding beauty again in this circle of life. i have learned sitting and dwelling takes me no where.. i will adventure and fall and get back up...but always forward march.... laffs.. usually finding bigger challenges and channels to cross...darn my own curiousities sometimes.. haha...but i do love life.. to laugh .. to hear laughter around me... happiness and joy... The sensual seductions of life...taking us...sighs... and i could go on and on and on... but i shall not ramble here with my nonsense.
Hugs Liane.. your heart and soul.. so beautiful...so much wonder and addventure.. you are loved... ~ rainy
p.s... i love Richard Marx.. Right Here Waiting For You.. seemed to always touch a spot in me..
songs...i so love the art of music....the dance of life.. they go together so well, yes? xx
Melancholy maybe? Whatever it is, it is most definitely not "silly". You know, this blog is probably one of the most well rounded I've read--and no, I don't mean your body, although I'm sure that it's finely proportioned, too.
ReplyDeleteThomas -- whoo hoo, i am lighting someone's wick.. I don't know what that means, but still Whoo hooo ;-)
ReplyDeleteRainy -- you know, you should call yourself "Sunshine"... you make me smile every time you come for a visit... and you know, my new situation does have quite the positive aspects, and i will share soon... Music.. you know, i let music influence my mood... and sometimes I let music underline my mood... Richard Marx is my most favorite artist since the 80's and his lyrics always find their way to a situation of mine... now that's silly, isn't it? ;-)
MP -- melancholy... pardon a silly foreigner, but doesn't that word mean sad or depressed or something in that direction? It's not how I feel, really.. It's a weird feeling, but not all too negative. I can't even give you a clear word for this feeling in my native language... and thank you for your "compliment" (i take it as one anyway) about my blog being well rounded... and you made me blush a little at the end there ;-)
Liane,
ReplyDeleteNo, I didn't mean sad and depressed. Melancholia as in a kind of contented sadness, or something that's not sad and not happy but floating somewhere between them.
And you are most welcome for the other comment! ;-)
MP... floating somewhere in between.. maybe that's it.. although i still say that i don't really feel sadness... leave it to a woman to confuse emotions, eh?
ReplyDeleteSometime you have to tread alot of water to find that one wave you can climb onto to surf your way back to solid ground
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